started off with,
"It is better to speak about certain issues, that he was genuinely hurt and he would like to let me know. the last time we had sex, since then he had been watching me to know what I really want, and that he can clearly see that I do not want a child. that he very much wants one, and that is why he keeps coming to me for sex, that a married couple seeking for a child should not be begging the other partner for sex , which is what he seems to be doing in this marriage. and now my ovulation window for this month (march) has passed and I didn't even bother to come to him for sex, that he knows for a fact from hear say from people that it is the woman who comes to the man to get her pregnant. unless there is something you are not telling me".
"You see period for 10 days in a month, nothing wrong in me having sex the remaining 20 days of the month.it is not how it is done, when you marry, you give your husband sex, anytime he asks for it. do you want me to go outside and ask for sex? something I swore never to do in marriage?",
My reply;
The thing that happened between us the last time wasn't sex! it was RAPE!! you cannot tell me that you had sex with your wife when her back was turned towards you, her hands firmly in-between her legs as she is rolled up like a ball in bed.
I have told you time and again, that you need to respect my body, I give you sex 5 times a week, and the day I say no, you should keep your penis to yourself for that night, this is both a threat and a warning! I am tired of being used as a sleeping pill. make love to your wife if you want to have a child, don't force yourself on her.
I am not a prostitute, I have feelings too, when you have sex with your wife, at least allow her cum once in every 5 times, it is not too much to ask, stop making me feel used, I cant feel like that the rest of my life.
I will not die during pregnancy or childbirth just because you need a child, you know all the issues I have, I need to see a doctor to put me in the clear that this pain in my umbilically cord will not be the death of me during pregnancy, you know for sure that I have anemia and I almost always don't have enough blood to sustain me not to talk of sustaining another life, I am supposed to be on folic acid at least 12 weeks before conception or immediately I find out I am pregnant so that I will not give birth to a child with brain or cerebral malfunction, ( I have been reading a lot and listening to many seminars, I know for a fact from qualified doctors, that if you have been making love constantly for a year and no pregnancy, then you should see a fertility specialist, we have been together for 3 years now, I haven't even seen a Dermatologist, not to talk of a Gynecologist, so what do do you think?)
I believe that the problem is from me, not to be stereotypical, but you already have children, so if you have a case of infertility, then it would be secondary, those type are not difficult to solve, but I have never been pregnant my entire life thus, mine would be primary infertility.
Seeing as this visa issue is not getting sorted out anytime soon, and I know your schedule, it is difficult for you to work around from office to office to get things done, if I per adventure get pregnant now, I would either die in the pregnancy or give birth to a deformed child because I would not have had any prenatal vitamins.
All in all I need to see a doctor ASAP. I am not saying if the pregnancy comes I would be sad, but it hasn't come in the 3 years we have been together, and I know for a fact again, that I need a doctor. these painful menstruations that I have is not normal, I was treating it when I lived like a human in Tallinn.
Him;
So you are saying that all these while, you planned/never wanted to get pregnant before your visa issue is sorted out?
Me;
it is ok to sieve and select what you want to hear, but I have said what I said.
Him;
I know where this is heading to, I will cut it before it gets there.
Me;
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Why do men always think if they say, you aren't giving me sex, I will go outside and get , and expect the woman is to tremble?, Jesus!
do they also know that the woman could be sexually frustrated and can also get admirers and seek out sexual satisfaction from men outside? it is not feminism, it is reciprocity.
Also, I think the kind of life my husband lived after his first divorce is still inherent in him, like he just fucked women for the pleasure of himself, now he married me, and I refused to be treated like that i.e. trash!
I too want to fuck and cum!
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